November 14, 2014

The View from Here

 

I ate an apple this morning.  In fact I ate two.And I am still alive.  ::Beams::  Of course everything was downhill from there but the apples were fabulous . . .

I was thinking . . . it’s not all stomach flu, or the Samaritans, that my blogging has dropped so precipitously.  Some of it is what I had been saying for six and a half years or whatever it was by then, that if I stopped doing it every day I would stop doing it.  Although some of it certainly is the added time-and-energy demand of the Samaritans.**

But some of it is just the way my life is going.  At the moment there’s a lot less good public blog material than there was a couple of years ago.  I don’t want to wrestle with my involuntary two-year-old faith in public:  God is love and the world is a mess, whatever.  Why does accepting God as love immediately throw THE WORLD IS A MESS into unbearably sharp relief?  Discuss.  No, don’t.  And theology scares the living doodah out of me.  WHAT?  I was comforted recently by reading or hearing some frelling scholar saying that in the Middle Ages no one would have bothered debating the existence of God, and if you’d tried they’d look at you in bewilderment:  theirs was a practical faith and they just got on with it.  And when it’s all too much, which it usually is, I just get on with it too, here in the twenty-first century, although that plan is not without its drawbacks.  I went round to the estate agent’s today, the fellow who is (we hope) selling the mews for us, because he has a long list of councils, bodies, boards and free lance gardeners, haulers-away and electricians, whom he’s going to sic onto me, and those of you who know me know I do not do mornings, which councils, bodies, boards etc, are often regrettably fond of, and I wanted to emphasise that my passing references to being a late riser were particularly apropos these next two mornings because I had a late duty with the Sams followed by an all-nighter with the Street Pastors.  I knew he had already categorised me as peculiar*** but I could now see him staring at me as if I had six heads.

Sigh.

And then . . . well, for example, I have a recently-disabled friend whom I spend the evening with about once a week, to give both her and her regular carers a break.  I could make a very funny story of our experience this week when the latest piece of shiny!  New!  Expensive!  NHS kit got jammed in the frelling doorway because it was TOO WIDE TO FIT THROUGH.  The little squeezy lever didn’t squeeze it far enough.†  My friend lives in an ordinary, non-adapted house with, you know, ordinary sized doors.  Doesn’t the NHS, like, I mean, how obvious . . . um, measure the average apertures their home-care assistance machinery is going to have to NEGOTIATE WITH??  We went through some of this after Peter’s stroke too, but . . . GAH.  But while I’m the one that gouged some paint off the doorframe, the choice being gouge the sodding frame or call an ambulance and she voted for architectural damage, it’s still essentially not my story to tell.

I’ve told you before about the Samaritans’ pathological confidentiality, so there it’s like, telephone?  There are telephones in the Sams’ front office?  REALLY?  ::Drums fingers and looks clueless::  And I could have got a lot of stories, not very many of them funny although all of them redolent of human nature, out of the Street Pastors’ David Lynch Halloween.††  Or out of most SP shifts.  But while I know there are a lot of properly published and money-for-their-authors-earning memoirs out there about social-service work both professional and charitable most of my SP duties don’t feel like my stories to tell either.

Eh well.  I’m going to have to work on learning to recommend books or something.  I’ve got a pile of ‘must put these on the blog’ books about hip high at this point, leaning against the grandmother clock in the sitting room at the cottage.  I should also answer more forum comments.

Maybe I should just concentrate on KES.

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* But not six.  But they were big ones.

** And there’s still that homeopathy course to wedge in somewhere.^  Blasted Darkness managed to put his back/neck/shoulders out again.  Arnica didn’t work, but rhus tox did.  I should do some reading up on frelling stomach flu to have a short list of plausible suspects if the subject comes up again WHICH IT’S NOT GOING TO OF COURSE.

^ I keep averting my attention from Japanese language lessons.  Sigh.

*** I have no idea why!  None whatsoever!

† Like trying to thread super-chunky-monster yarn into an ordinary tapestry needle.  HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.  Fluffy 12-mm size yarn won’t even fit through the big diamond-shaped wire opening of a needle threader, you know?  Now what?  Weave in the ends with my fingers?  Cut off the carefully preserved long frelling yarn tails and sew the ends in place?

†† Did I even tell you that the two people who had had possibly the worst Halloween night of anyone on the planet actually tracking Saturday night’s Street Pastors team down to thank them/us/SPs?  That was pretty frelling nice.

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